When I Grow Up

Recently I was asked, "In your twenties, should you just do what your heart desires without committing to one thing or should you hone in on your skill and stay focused with one thing?  In your twenties should you KNOW what you want to do with your entire life?" 


My response was, in a nutshell, there is no right or wrong, each person has to follow what moves them, what makes their soul dance, and their heart sing.

I know folks who were born knowing EXACTLY what they wanted to be when they grew up and worked their entire lives to make their desire a reality. I also know folks who just landed into positions that helped them to be responsible and live the way adults live and they opted to continue on that path.  I've met people who didn't know what they wanted, had no direction at all and just floated around, kinda like a feather, remember the feather in the movie Forest Gump?  

When I was eight years old I  wanted to be a Psychiatrist,  I'm not sure where that thought came from but I still remember telling folks this is what I was going to be when I grew up, whenever anyone asked, it didn't matter who asked, that was ALWAYS my answer.  I said I wanted to be a Psychiatrist until I was about, oh say maybe 16.  In high school my dream was to be an Executive Assistant so I can get paid well and could afford to go to college. One of my goals was to be a life learner (so far, so good).

I remember I was a feather, with a purpose, I still have a purpose every moment I attempt to embody my purpose. I may falter a bit as I AM a Spirit having a HUMAN experience but that is absolutely ok. I have compassion for myself and for others, I grow every day and ever moment.  I don't know for sure what I want to BE when I GROW UP but I do know I'm learning and loving every step of the way.


What do you want to be when you grow up?
Did you always know what career path you would take?
Are you currently doing what makes your heart sing?

Love transcends all things.  Trust in the wonder and power of your dreams.

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Love exists and Life is a miracle, treat it all as such.
Namastè.
In possibility,
Jewels

Life is Love!

I don't have to know you forever, talk to you every day, see you all the time, to love you.

I don't have to hear your voice on the phone or see your face in my space to love you.

I am moved by feelings and touched by kindness.

We could have only seen each other one time, spent just one moment, present with each other, that's all it takes for me to carry you in my heart.

My heart is huge and my love is great.

When I am present to what exists within and without I can soar.

Thank you Lord. Thank you Universe for allowing me to be consistently surrounded by the greatest most amazing folks around.  Every time I meet another special someone I know we are all GOD.

I am that I am.


Hop Skip Scotch and away. ;)

Love transcends all things.  Trust in the wonder and power of your dreams.

Thank you for reading and Sharing.

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Love exists and Life is a miracle, treat it all as such.
Namastè.
In possibility,
Julie Jewels

First Draft:

3.3.12
I wrote the date on here yesterday morning and took a deep breathe but had nothing I wanted to share.

I had a basically normal Julie, the mom day yesterday.

March is always a powerful and nostalgic month for me. I was born March.

Last night my son went out to a birthday party with my sister and her family.  This was his first party without mom and he had such a great time.  It was Olivia's 5th birthday celebration and I've been wanting Max to hang out with Oli and her two brothers for a couple of years now, by a couple I literally mean two.  I went to hug two dear ladies in my life, at the Brooklyn Museum and was home by 11:00 pm.  Max has not stopped talking about how great the cake was or how awesome the party was.  He said to his dad this morning, as they brushed, "I sang happy birthday to my friend and it was fun. I started to be a little bit shy but then I wasn't shy anymore.  I ate a lot of cake, it was really good!"  What a conversation, what a moment.  I feel so honored and blessed to be Maximillian's mom and at the same time I'm like WHAT!? I'm Maximillian's mom.

Max is easily able to articulate his feelings.  At the ripe old age of 34 months, yes MONTHS, he can clearly identify what he is feeling and what his responses are and share.  It's amazing to me.  I know lots of it is coaching and I know that the most of it is that this is the person he was born to be.  It was not easy for me to let go and send my baby boy to a party with my sister and not go with him. It was tricky for me and a bit emotional.

I have been a stay at home mom now for a while and my attachment to my son is just as great as his attachment to me.  We spend every moment of every day together and I thank the Lord that we can.  I value the time and the opportunity and pray that my influence on him helps him to have the best life he can possibility have.  While speaking to an amazing mother last night, we both decided, we only do the best we can, and like Maya Angelou says, "When you know better, you do better!"  My mom was a stay at home mom for most of my life and I know she always did and still does, only the best that she can.  I didn't turn out that bad, with her coaching, her love and therapy, in my later years, I have been able to live a pretty fabulous life.  I love, I laugh, I live.  I have so much experience and yet know nothing and am still growing.  I know these times will not return and the moments and the memories Max and I have created during this time will live in our souls always, in all of our lifetimes to come.  I only pray I am doing the appropriate things that will help him to thrive.

Last night I doubted for a minute I should send him off to a party and I go off to a Dance Party at the BK museum.  I hesitated for a moment thinking, that would be bad, he's too little, my sister won't have fun, she will have to watch him. He may get upset about something, he's going to miss me, he will play and run on the stairs and get hurt, geez, all the thoughts I had in that moment.  I took a deep breathe and thought about how independent he is, how responsible and amazing my sister is, how he needs to grow and lots of times it will be without me physically there.  I had all these thoughts and took another deep breathe and let him go.  I sat for a moment once he was gone and I said to myself, "self, I know you want to put on your pj's and curl up with your, The Dance of Anger, book by Dr. Harriet Lerner and just wait for your man to home so you can talk or not but you know you want to see Moni at the museum.  Get yourself up and get dressed and go to the museum, it's what you truly want to do even if you don't want to do it alone."  My dear friend Tomika met me at the museum and I got to hug both Tomika and Moni.  I've had them both on the brain and they are both such amazing women who inspire such greatness and strength.  They embody this for me and I love their energy, from day one, for each of them, respectively.  I went. I got dressed in my wanna be hipster gear and got in my car with all of 27 dollars. I panicked once I got to Brooklyn and realized I ONLY had 27 dollars on me.  Guess what, parking was $4.00 and the Museum was FREE! The smiles and hugs were Priceless.

I came home and Max was still out.  His dad asked, "Where's Max? Still at the party?" I said, "yes and he is having a great time and he will call me when he is on his way home." WOW, what an evening of growth.
3.3.12


Happy 4th.

Love transcends all things.  Trust in the wonder and power of your dreams.

Thank you for reading and Sharing.

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Love exists and Life is a miracle, treat it all as such.
Namastè.
In possibility,
Julie Jewels