Written as a "note" in Facebook on March 27, 2011 at 10:41 PM
Motherhood has been a lovely adventure for me thus far. I don't know if I'm truly cut out for it, I do know there is no love greater than the love I have for my son. I know for sure, I want to be the best mother to him/for him, I want to always do the right thing for him. I want my mistakes to not be detrimental to the healthy development of his being.
I nurse him because I want him to be healthy and strong, I read to him everyday because I want him to be brilliant, I explore with him because I want him to want to learn. I lay in bed and watch television with him because I get tired of running around and I feel the need to relax.
In the peacefulness of night when I hold him in my arm and nurse him to sleep I know these are moments that in my heart and mind will linger but within a few weeks or months they will only be a memory. I never thought holding him often would spoil him, on the contrary I feel holding him and outwardly loving him will only help us both to be emotionally independent and strong.
Everything I write is everything I believe, it doesn't have to be true for you, it is true for me.
I know for sure when he falls and I am there to help him up he is confident he has my support always. I am certain my son chose us to be his parents because he knew the balance of heart and mind and love. My son knows love, this I know for sure. My son IS love this I am even more sure of.
Lovingly Maximillian's Mom